You know you're getting old when you can't even remember what day it is!
How many of you out there know what I'm talking about? Come on, admit it! Now one on this earth wants to get old. We think we can live forever. Our human-ness tells us to "go on" and it will all work in the end.
I sure don't want to get old. My mind is that of a young person and in my mind "I'm 23!" Right? My body says otherwise. The aches and pains in my knees and back are off the charts and I just want to go back to bed.
However, when my bones act out, my FAITH tells me that my journey is not over just yet. I woke this morning, breathing, therefore the mission God sent me here for is not over with yet! I MUST PRESS ON, no matter my aches and pains and sometimes depression.
So before I get out of bed each day, I just thank God, HE has seen fit for me to love others, as HE loved me. I feel very honored and blessed that you are reading this right now. It means, I am on track and I must keep going, not matter what befalls me.
I had a dream in 1998. I woke up from a dead sleep and Jesus had my hand. He said nothing, but took me and with His other hand pointing ahead, we did a 360 degree turn. My interpretation of that dream was that I was to SHARE TO ALL THE WORLD, THE WORKS OF HIS HANDS, through me. SHOW THE LOVE was what I came away with, and I still, to this day, believe that is why I wake up breathing every morning.
As I woke, about a week ago, my eyes were burning so bad, I couldn't even open them. It took almost an hour for me to do so. I was seeing three of everything and it was like I was in a fog. It was frightening.
My eyes have never been very good. I've been wearing glasses or contacts most of my years. You learn to adapt. Even with your "close-up" work.
I had an eye exam about 4 months ago. I have cataracts and macular degeneration. My doctor told me that we have to fix everything in July, if nothing changed. Well, things have changed. I have another exam on Monday.
It's just another OLD AGE hiccup that I must endure. But you know how I look at it...Jesus died for me on that cross. And HE died for YOU. So, I figure if He can do that for me, I will do what HE asked of me...to share with you, HIS LOVE! I am just the vessel. HE guides my hand and puts these ideas of LOVE into my heart.
My human-ness gets in the way, ALL THE TIME, but I have to remember why I'm here. I am okay with that. I'm proud and HONORED to share with each of you, THIS WONDERFUL LOVE!
Why?? Cause HE did it for me...for YOU. Plain and simple.
